Tuesday, September 8th, 2009
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Thursday, August 13th, 2009
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9:37 pm - back
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i'm back on here, after almost a year away. I couldn't remember the password fot my account. all is good now as far as getting into LJ is concerened, all is not well weight wise. more later
current mood:  blah
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Thursday, April 3rd, 2008
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7:43 am
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hey everyone,
i haven't posted on here is about 3 or 4 months...i've gained 8 lbs so i'm now 115. my goal is still 100lbs so i've got a ways to got. does anyone know what a really good diet pill is? i've been scouring the internet and can't seem to find one. anyway, this is my 1 year anniversary with anorexia/ ED behavior. kinda of freaky huh? that i'm still not at my goal weight? granted there have been times where i didn't take it as seriously as i should have and binged, but now i'm completely back and committed. ice baths and all. i hope that people from 43 things are still on here. i miss that site with it's easy format and the helpfulness that everyone was really wiling to offer. i hope that i can find that here again.
stats
hw: 127
lw: 107
cw: 115
gw1: 110
gw2: 105
gw3: 100
height : 5'6"
maybe i'll go lower after that
oh and measurements
bust: 31a
waist: 24in
hips:34 in
anyone know good thigh slimming exercises?
thanks for listening
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Sunday, November 25th, 2007
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5:49 pm
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so i'm proud of myself....i ate about 600 cal, which is not the best ever but i DID NOT take any laxatives today and i'm happy that i could resist from it. i haven't binged in about 3 days which is huge for me cause i usually would fix it with lax. so i'm proud of myself.
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7:35 am
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measurements:
Bust: 31 in
waist: 23.5 in
hips: 34 in
thigh: 19 in
i know, i'm fat
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Saturday, November 24th, 2007
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4:56 pm
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i don't know what it is. the more weight i lose the fatter i feel. it's never enough, and i never wanna give up. i've been fitting into most size zeros now, but i want them to be loose on me. i want to feel skinny. and i don't. god i just want to weigh nothing, i want my thighs to be ten inches apart, i want a nonexistent butt. i hate this. i hate me. it's never enough, but i have to try...arghhhh. i feel stupid but hopeful at the same time.
sorry for rambling
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Monday, November 19th, 2007
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10:43 am - update
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haven't been on here in a while, but here's an update
stats
hw: 127
cw: 107
gw1: 105
gw2:100
gw3: 95
height: 5'6"
xxx
maus
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Friday, October 26th, 2007
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10:17 am - stuck
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Monday, October 22nd, 2007
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7:48 pm
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i tried on a pair of my sister's size zero jeans and they fit. granted whey were from th gap and they were a bit tight but they fit!!!!! yay!
xxx
Maus
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Thursday, October 18th, 2007
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4:43 pm
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i'm 110 finally and i;m on my period, it's wierd that it came back but i thinkit's cuase my mom forced me to eat normally. but weird thing happened today. my really skinny friend who i thought was 5'9' an 110 is actually 108. i was pissed cuase she's taller and lighter than me!!!! but she said she's being made to gain wieght and get to 120 by her doctors ( she used to be anorexic) and i've suspected she may be bullemic but i don't know. i absolutley love her but at the same time i'm happy tht she'll gian wieght. 1st of all she's really sick and has lots of trouble with her health, but also it will make me feel skinnier. and even at 120 she'll have a BMI of 17.7. so not fair. i'm like 17.8 right now. She was my ultimate thinspo so i dunno what the hell i'm gonna do. but even so i want her to gian weight. i'm selfish and screwed up. i'm worried abotu her health but don't care abouot mine. such a fucking mess.
xxxx
Maus
current music: The Beatles
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Monday, October 8th, 2007
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3:38 am
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my goal is to get into the 10_ this week. hopefully at least 109 by friday. my sister is 5'3.9' and 107 so if i lose this weight i will be skinnier than her. and she's really small boned. i hate her. she eats everything and doesn't gain. meanwhile i starve and purge and cant get a fucking decents nights sleep cause i can't sleeop well and have to get up becoause of the laxatives. i spend all my money on clothes and laxatives. this sucks.
xxx
Maus
current stats
Hw: 127
lw: 111
cw:112
gw1: 110
gw2:105
gw3:100
height: 5'6"
i may go lower. maybe 95
xxxx
Maus
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Sunday, September 30th, 2007
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7:40 pm
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havent posted for a while. i've been okay. i reached 111 for real this time. still a size 2. 10 more lbs to size 0. yay! wish me luck. i kinda feel like i can reach it
xxx
Maus
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Thursday, September 13th, 2007
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8:00 pm
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so i remember think ing i should post on here, but i'm not sure what the hell i was going to post about....oh right. i lost my period. whatever. i was totally expecting it and then it's like see ya later. i knew this would happen but i guess what i was doing never seemed lieka big deal. anyways i bought choclate lax today and i love them. it's like a treat and purge all in one! urgh sometimes i'm so sick i disgust myself. how were your days????????? school keeps me super busy so i hhave.t been on here as much :(
xxxx
Maus
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6:33 am
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so, nothing much has been happening haven't been doing too good or too bad. just kinda there. pallningto eat under 100 cals so my parents see my eating but wont eat too much.
xx
Maus
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Monday, September 3rd, 2007
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8:32 pm
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Sunday, September 2nd, 2007
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12:42 pm
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8:43 am
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i find it funny that i'm losing weight and can't share it with anyoone in my life. in a way it's frusterating b/c i want someone to notice my hard work, but then again i don't want anyone to be suspicious. my mom asked my weight the other day for some form she was filling out, and i told her 118. now i'm 115 so i told her a higher weight so she wouldn't be freaking out. i'm alwayws going to tell her a higher weight than i am. the only people i can share my real weight with is myself and you girls. sorry, just kinda thought about this the past couple of days.
xxxx
Maus
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Thursday, August 30th, 2007
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10:30 pm
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update
hw: 127
cw=lw=115
gw1: 110
gw2:105
gw3: 100
height: 5'6"
tell me what you think, i may go lower
xxxx
Maus
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4:32 pm
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so some news. when i said i hit 111 last week i dont think i actually did i think my scale said 117 but since it was dark in my room and i didn't have glasses on i couldn't see very well. however i'm now 115-113 so thats good. i took like 9 laxatives the other day and i paid for it i was throwing up all night and have felt sick all day. please don't take the amount i did 2 laxatives should do the trick, and no one should go through the misery i had today. i also found an amazing website, it has great info and some thinspo.
http://theskinnywebsite.com
hope you all are doing well
xxxx
Maus
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Wednesday, August 29th, 2007
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11:49 am
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so i'm going to physical thereapy w. my mom and i'm gonna go to the bookstore and look arounx. then a dermatologist appt. blah blah blah. i feel like i should eat proteing cause i'm alwayss tired. w/e i'm leaving soon anyways and son't care enough
xxx
Maus
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